Wow guys, it’s been a minute. Life sure has gotten the best of me here in small town Virginia. And now there are almost 500 of you subscribed to my corner of the internet! WHAT!? Welcome!
So where have I been? Honestly, this past year I’ve been swept away by school changes, job opportunities, and life in general. I’m sure you all know how that is. In January I received a call about a job opening as a Marketing & Communication Manager in my area. Not only was it a great opportunity, but I was needing something that got me out of the house and around people, so I went in for the interview. The interview process went quickly and I was even offered a higher salary than I requested. Here I am 10 months later working and loving the great learning experiences. Guys, this job has literally SAVED ME. Let me explain.
For those that don’t know me personally you should know that these past few years I’ve struggled with severe depression, like “can’t get out of bed, cry myself to sleep” kind of depression. It was BAD. Far worse then I let others or myself believe. I don’t really want to talk too much about it in this post, but let me know if you would like me to write a post (or start some Youtube videos) about my struggles and what I’ve done to overcome depression without medication. I believe more people struggle with mental illness’s than we know, and there needs to be more openness about it.
Anyway, back to how this job has been a lifesaver. When we moved to Virginia last year I looked at the change as an opportunity to start over. However, depression doesn’t just switch off. It’s a struggle. At this point I had gained some understanding and tools to use when I saw the warning signs of an anxiety and depression whirlwind. But being in a new place, 2,000 miles from everyone I knew, and working from home was a recipe for depression. I’m a pretty introverted gal and I never thought that I needed much social interaction to be happy. Social interaction always made me exhausted. But after working from home by myself for 15 hours a day my depression got worse and something had to change. Hence, new job.
When I got this job it gave me the perfect outlet to work and connect with people. I had no idea that it would heal me in so many ways. My financial stress was eased, I had other women to connect with, I felt valued, I felt successful, and I needed that more than I knew. My depression has slipped away as I’ve worked hard. Sure I have moments of stress, anxiety, and feelings of depression, but I do not have that mental illness looming over me every hour. This job has saved me, and I feel free. I can’t help but cry with gratitude for the relief.
This job has taught me a lot of things. The biggest being how important it is to just try. Even if you don’t succeed, or things don’t go as planned, or you get hurt in the process, or it’s hard; try and try your best! We can either stay sitting in despair or we can take responsibility and do something. We can let life rule us (because it will at times) and just give up, or we can stop, breathe, learn, and take control. I was really unsure if I would get the job, and I almost talked myself out of it, but I am so proud of myself for doing the hard thing and trying! If I can do it, so can you. Humans are powerful, and you are human.
I look forward to what the rest of this year has to offer. I plan to keep my website updated weekly, and I hope I have the pleasure of sharing it with you.